Do you know what it’s like to hit rock bottom and you have no idea how you are going to get back up?
Do you know how it feels when your whole life as you knew it has crumbled and you have no idea who you are or how to start your life again?
If you can relate to this….I hear you!
I’ve been there.
I was there.
My 17 year marriage fell apart and my life as I knew it crumbled around me.
My heart shattered into a million pieces.
It felt like my life had ended.
It felt like someone had died.
It felt like I had lost a part of my body.
I was totally heartbroken.
I felt unworthy.
I felt ashamed.
I felt like a failure.
I felt scared.
I felt guilty.
The list of self-loathing emotions I felt towards myself was endless.
For a long while getting out of bed in the morning was the biggest struggle.
I felt hopeless, a terrible mother, my body was gripped in such deep grief and pain that I literally felt like I couldn’t move.
I couldn’t even think about tomorrow without feeling anxious and panicky.
Over the years I had developed an addiction to recreational drugs which I felt so much shame over.
I didn’t really know how to go out and enjoy myself without it.
I had no idea who I was.
I hadn’t supported myself financially for 14 years.
At 42 years old…I had no idea how to start a new life on my own.
But deep down inside I had a knowing.
A knowing that this was right and happening for me.
A knowing that this was an opportunity to rise up and connect to my authentic self.
To find a way to transform my life and create the reality of my dreams.
IS THERE ANY PART OF MY STORY YOU CAN RELATE TO?
I remember the day that woke me up and urged me to begin rebuilding myself and my life.
I was in bed and had barely been out of my room for a while. My daughter came over and made me get up and go see a friend. When I got back later, she had gone, my house was spotless and on my freshly made bed was a note saying… “Tomorrow is a new day. I love you.” I sobbed as my heart filled with love and gratitude for the love, beauty, compassion and wisdom she had shown me. My baby girl, now a young woman had reminded me of love, unconditional love and I decided at that moment to begin my journey back to loving myself.
I HAD TO FOR MY CHILDREN.
I HAD TO FOR MYSELF.
In 2 years, I have completely transformed my life.
I became a Forrest yoga Teacher and bodyworker and Healer.
I am a Shamanic Practitioner and write and share medicine songs and hold Full and New Moon fire ceremonies.
I fully stepped into my power weaving all of my magic into becoming a transformational coach and healer to empower women to rise up from adversity in their lives.
I moved and created a beautiful new home for myself and my kids.
I started my own business.
I met my soulmate and have a deeply loving intimate spiritual relationship.
And most importantly I have fallen deeply in love with myself and my life.
When I look back, I feel so much gratitude, so much pride at how far I’ve come.
So how did I do it?
How did I turn my life around?
It all happened the moment I made a commitment that no matter what I was going to stay in a place of love and live from my heart.
I committed to accepting and loving ALL of me unconditionally.
I learnt to stop living in the past, repeating stories and create a beautiful new life.
I learnt to receive and give love unconditionally.
I learnt to forgive myself and everyone else involved.
I learnt to connect to the true authentic expression of me and be it unapologetically.
I committed to leading by example and show my children that it is possible to rise above anger, resentment and bitterness into unconditional love.
I committed to living with integrity and grace.
I committed to loving harder than any other negative emotion, embody and BE love.
Secondly, I chose to take responsibility for what had happened in my life, for my own happiness and not play into victimhood and drama anymore.
To be responsible for and change my behaviour, habits and stories connected to the imprints of my past that were clearly no longer serving me.
I overcame my addictions to numbing out, drama, behaviour and stories of a lifetime. I had to get clear and conscious of what they were in order to catch myself, interrupt the pattern and change it.
Thirdly I practiced dreaming about how I wanted my future to look.
How I wanted to feel.
Who I wanted to be.
What I wanted to do.
Why I wanted to do it.
I practiced and embodied how my future self would act, feel and be and made a commitment to be that person every day. I learnt tools to support me to overcome those moments when my past self would try and draw me back.
Everyday I practiced, committed and invested wholeheartedly into being my future self until it was more of a habit than being my past self.
And when I fell from grace, I owned it, made amends, forgave myself, loved myself and started again. I chose to never give up.
I surrendered to the deeply uncomfortable and painful emotions I had repressed my whole life.
I leaned right into vulnerability.
I chose to rise up out of victimhood and into empowerment.
I chose to embody and FEEL deep gratitude and love for every experience, not only the joyful ones.
I chose to open my heart fully and commit to living, breathing and being my future self every single day.
I am here to tell you that ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING IS POSSIBLE.
I am here to tell you that YOU ARE THE MASTER CREATOR OF YOUR REALITY.
I am here to tell you that YOU CAN CREATE THE REALITY OF YOUR DREAMS.
But it’s not easy to rise up on your own.
So I have created 3 and 6 month coaching programmes to support and guide you to create the reality of YOUR dreams.
I will guide you through a unique and powerful 4 part process to deep inner work that will connect you to your inner guidance system and activate your heart wisdom.
You will ignite the fire in your heart and set your spirit on fire.
You will be empowered to FEEL into ALL of you, your shadows and your light.
You will be empowered to turn your shadows into your super powers and activate the bright light of your spirit.
You will be guided deep into feeling and empowered to overcome your fears.
You will become super comfortable with being uncomfortable and reclaim your power where you have been giving it away.
You will get really clear about your old stories, beliefs and habits that have been limiting you in your life.
You will get really clear about your new story and who you choose to be in your life and the world.
You will rewrite your story and step fully into your power and magic and embrace the beauty and wisdom within your heart and soul.
You will connect to your limitlessness.
You will set yourself free.
Get in touch TODAY to book a discovery call!
TODAY IS THE DAY YOU BEGIN TO IGNITE THE FIRE WITHIN YOUR BEAUTIFUL HEART!
I received coaching from Hummingbird at a point in my life when I knew I wanted certain things, but couldn’t yet tap into my own resources. The support I received was so valuable. There’s only so much, I fell, can be gained through ‘self-help’ from a book. The opportunity to share, to reflect and to step into a place where I could voice my truth without a sense of judgement has been a potent experience I’ve been able to return to, as I continue to explore Life as it is, not, how it has been presented to me.
I deeply appreciate the fierce boundary-setting Hummingbird provided, I felt supported as I took emotional risks I’d never taken before- also learning where my life needed boundaries so I could continue the work.
I have grown to notice and not judge Fear as it appears in daily life.
I learned I could have fun as I explored shadow, that, there is joy to be had in equal measure to the emotions I felt too small to experience.
It’s funny, some of Hum’s FB posts really triggered strong reactions, defence, resistance, cynicism- and it’s also the place to work with these feelings as indicators that there’s something to explore. I could know this through reading about it, but I may not have hung around with these less comfortable and culturally acceptable feelings without support, including being celebrated and encouraged to tap into my own power, to awaken a capacity to love.
Hummingbird leads by example, there’s no P.R. polish, no bullshit, the shine you experience comes from her.